2005

hey..

its been a while since my last blogging. forgot my password..soo true..sigh!

2005, so many things happened, esp during the last bit chunk of the year. it has been a roller-coster year i should say.

my beloved grandma passed away 5.12.05. such a sad day it was..my sis called me while i was getting ready 4 work. i couldnt believe it at first..i really can't. i still missed her , i really2 do..nenek bedridden for the past 3 years, and i couldnt bear watching her like that. ada hikmah dia pergi , and i think i know what it is. a blessing in disguise i should say. at least dia tak sengsara kat dunia lagi..and what she has done(sumbangan) towards me , my dad , my aunts , my uncles , my cousins , my fams is sumthing yg boleh dikatakan besar dan berpengaruh. dia seorang yg mangambil berat gila tentang anak2nya , anak2 mertuanya esp my mum dan juga cucu2nya. terlalu bnyak sgt pengorbanan beliau and its gonna take like FOREVER kalau nak dicoretkan didalam blog yg tak seberapa ni. enuff by saying she's one terriffic nenek and her lost was deeply felt by everyone in the family. semoga beliau mendapat keberkatan dariNYA..amin.

last year, 15.4.05 to be exact, i finally proposed to cinta..in becoming my girlfriend. we're still in love with each other and we definately can't be apart! our relationship works in a very mysterious way , not like the typical fairytale lovestory. so many bumpy things berlaku , but we're still intact towards each other. mcm kena gam! hehe. but what can i say huh? our love and affections keep getting stronger and stronger evryday man..no matter what. its true , so very2 true. everytime keluar dating dgn cinta mcm first time keluar dating. not the akwardness , but the anticipation of meeting sum1 that u truly love and adored so very2 much.

The greatest thing you'll ever learn Is to love and be loved in return.

cinta mmg seorang manusia yg kompleks dan unik. mencabar gue dari segenap aspek yg boleh. but i like that. that's what keep our bond and affection stronger and stronger and stronger and stronger. she awakens me to a new understanding with her complexity, her thoughts , her ideas , her personality , her sarcasticness , her suave and of course her love and affections towards me. itu yg menyebabkan aku syg sgt kat cinta.

we have problems , yes i admit. 50% of the problems comes from me. but im so disturbed and sad to know that our surroundings menyalahkan cinta diatas segala2nya..throwing unnecessary judgements towards her. she is complicated and complex , but there are things yg triggered her emotions to become like that, bknnya dia sengaja buat mcm tu. when we talked our problems kat org lain , bukannya nak suruh FIX / JUDGE , but we want them to listen and encourage us, not throwing judgements. if they want to judge who is rite or wrong , then they should listen to both parties. im DISTURBED and i dont want to talk bout my problems wif anyone in my circle anymore. kalau ada relatioship prob, better cite dgn org yg takda kena mengena dgn aku dan cinta..so that i get honest and not biased punya opinion. ada gak my frens yg not biased , and i thank them for that. but cukuplah , situation sekarang ni pun dah serabut dan kompleks. its hard to make people understand. i dun want people to think that cinta is the evil one. i'm also at fault okey?! cinta is soo caring and she always encourage me whenever i feel down .always there for me. bare in mind that when problems occured, its not her fault entirely. i dun want people to throw judgement at her , the consequences are very much sucky. its hard to gain other people's trust u know , esp women. rite now , i dun want to mix cinta wif my frens at the moment. later on perhaps. its messy and i dun like people to push it. " bila nak keluar sekali? or jomla ajak cinta sekali " --> at the moment..no way man. I WANT TO KEEP CINTA AWAY FROM MY SURROUNDINGS FOR AWHILE. I DECIDED ON THAT , NOT HER. DUN EVER2 BLAME HER ON THAT. CALL ME WHATEVER U WANT , I DUN CARE.

cloudburst? well, things r doin fine btw. got a gigg last 24th dec and it was a blast man! we played 3 original songs and 2 covers. Radiohead's fake plastic trees and also The Killer's all these things. cool gile beb! people applauded us gila2! cinta was there , and i seriously thank her for that. love yoouuu and she was there witnessing, lagi best. we're goin to the studio to cut another demo in febuary 06, insyallah. ROCK ON YEAH YEAH!!

hmm..work? got promoted to the next upper level. rite now, im the head of fire ins dep of CAC Maybank S'gor. big responsibilities dude..mcm figure kena submit to manager interms of key performance. doa bnyk2 supaya kuatkan semangat and tabah diatas segala2nya. i know i can do it , i know i can.

all in all i have to say 2005 was special in a certain way.

With The Lights Out..