FiRsT DaY oF LoNeLiNeEs

hey..

Cinta went to t'gnu for 3 days..and i missed her like hell!

Yesterday was the first day , and i feel soOo lonely. although i hanged out wif bob , but still i miss my girl. can't stop thingking bout her.

i woke up around 7 plus , and as usual i will look at her pic first. then checked on my phone , see if there's any missed calls or sms. hmm..3 missed calls and 2 sms, all of em' from cinta. feel bad coz i didn't answered her calls , coz i wuz sleeping and didn't hear anythin! geesh! apa la aku ni? anyway , bgn pagi jer dah rasa lousy , why? well..CINTA TAKDE KAT KL!! DURGHH! called her to check on her, dia dlm ketaa laaa..hehehe. dia mimpi dia jadi Dana Scully X-Files..wow! that's hot! err..i mean my baby is hot , not dana scully k? mmmhmmhmmmhmm..k lah , dua2 hot! but i dun love dana scully. i love syasya..then me slept again..

bgn2 je lepak dgn bob kat dpn TV..layan game resident evil 4. scary and suspen! dah la si bob tu cepat terkejut , then main game2 yg mcm tu lagilaaa layan haha! i used to play that game , resident evil 1 & 2 and seriusly addicted to it. masa tu PS1 jer, but im sooo addicted to game that time , time2 aku belajar kat matrix. (masa tu budak2 lagi laaa). i remember masa cuti sem dulu, lepak kat umah boy then we played the game whole night just nak kan mood takut and we were intrigued to know whats gonna happened next. aahh miss the ol times but hey , people changed. dun know what and when..but me not intrested in playing video games anymore. guess im over it skang nihs. currently looking for a new hobby , and rasa intrested in photography. my ofcmate ada ajak join belajar dgn dia doin rigging and stuffs , i'll think bout it. sounds intresting i should say , bleh buat duit , bleh kahwin *wink wink*. CINTAAAA.... i miss yoOoOu..

sms cinta to check out on her , dia still on the way. i told her bout me and my dad's joke bout bandar chukai , tganu. do u know that Chukai is malaysia's Texas? CHUKAI = TEXAS ? get it? hahahha kelakar kan? kan?KAN? gelak! gelak! kalo tak aku cekik kang ! hahahaha..errkh..---> im sooo lame at making jokes.

planned to watch Bulik Balik kat Sunway wif bob. but shit man! sunway jam giler! then we're off to OU..parking ok, semua ok. but shit again dudes! both TGV and GSC packed! so nak taknak terpaksa cancel the plan..then we had lunch at A&W wif our free discount coupons ( bunch of cheapskates). while lepak2 kat ctu , my mind still pikir pasal cinta. come to think of it , rite now apa2 yg i buat mesti ada kaitan dgn cinta secara langsung ataupun tidak. my life is her literally, and i like it. pergi plak OU , lagilaaaa hehehe..

it was 22.5.04 (saturday) , the day i met cinta for the first time. didn't plan to go to OU at that time. after work , me and my ofc mate planned to go to Mutiara D'sara to check out this new housing project. I was intrested and damn excited bout it coz dpt belajar cara2 nak usha rumah2 kat KL coz planning nak settledown kat sini. but then cancel , coz he had sum errands to do at home wif his wife. bit upset actually but not for long coz as i was driving kat federal highway , ternampak JayaJusco ounya sign and decided nak ke OU coz situ ada jusco. And then it happened..as i walked down the men's dept alley , i terserempak my good fren from Jb , Hairie. He's wif his fellow Maybankers yg br je habis training. and one of them is Cinta. i was dumbstruck and numb bila terlihat dia. my god..apa yg aku rasa ni? is this love at first sight? well..the rest is history ladies and gents.

erkh? mengelamun jap kat A&W. then me and bob pusing2 satu OU , lepak Baskin Robin nak jumpa my Uni fren Safwan yg merangkap Store Manager Baskin Robin OU. ramai gila org sampai dia pun tak terlayan. Bob nak beli banana split but harga dia RM19 man! geesh! takyaaaaaah leeer. as we were on the way to RHB ATM machine (kat ctu bleh kelaur Rm10), tetiba plaaaak ada sorang minah ni panggil2, rupanya fazuin! terkejut gue , dia kerja part time kat kedai mainan cho cho train. lepak jap dgn dia borak2 and she saw sumthin different wif me..hahahahaha dia punya gelak tak ingat! tak reti nak cover langsung..hehe! well, me and bob decided to gerak balik from OU but b4 that , dia nak beli spek hitam plaakk. ngada2 betul! takdak hal..then chow!

i started feeling lousy..sooooooo lousy being apart from cinta..

she called me ms aku br betul nak start rs lousy. miracle! the got dc i called her back. dia pun rasa lousy gak..hmmmmmm.. kalau ikutkan nak ajer aku gi tganu!

sampai umah around 7 plus, straight away i called cinta to hear her angelic voice and wanted to know apa dia tgh buat. lousy lousy lousy lousy...

layan DVD pun citer lousy..layan game dgn bob pun rs lousy gak..

the i sms cinta..unofficially i purposed to her for being my wife via cellphone, and she said yes.. dia agree (11.33pm 31st Jan 06).

With The Lights Out..

2005

hey..

its been a while since my last blogging. forgot my password..soo true..sigh!

2005, so many things happened, esp during the last bit chunk of the year. it has been a roller-coster year i should say.

my beloved grandma passed away 5.12.05. such a sad day it was..my sis called me while i was getting ready 4 work. i couldnt believe it at first..i really can't. i still missed her , i really2 do..nenek bedridden for the past 3 years, and i couldnt bear watching her like that. ada hikmah dia pergi , and i think i know what it is. a blessing in disguise i should say. at least dia tak sengsara kat dunia lagi..and what she has done(sumbangan) towards me , my dad , my aunts , my uncles , my cousins , my fams is sumthing yg boleh dikatakan besar dan berpengaruh. dia seorang yg mangambil berat gila tentang anak2nya , anak2 mertuanya esp my mum dan juga cucu2nya. terlalu bnyak sgt pengorbanan beliau and its gonna take like FOREVER kalau nak dicoretkan didalam blog yg tak seberapa ni. enuff by saying she's one terriffic nenek and her lost was deeply felt by everyone in the family. semoga beliau mendapat keberkatan dariNYA..amin.

last year, 15.4.05 to be exact, i finally proposed to cinta..in becoming my girlfriend. we're still in love with each other and we definately can't be apart! our relationship works in a very mysterious way , not like the typical fairytale lovestory. so many bumpy things berlaku , but we're still intact towards each other. mcm kena gam! hehe. but what can i say huh? our love and affections keep getting stronger and stronger evryday man..no matter what. its true , so very2 true. everytime keluar dating dgn cinta mcm first time keluar dating. not the akwardness , but the anticipation of meeting sum1 that u truly love and adored so very2 much.

The greatest thing you'll ever learn Is to love and be loved in return.

cinta mmg seorang manusia yg kompleks dan unik. mencabar gue dari segenap aspek yg boleh. but i like that. that's what keep our bond and affection stronger and stronger and stronger and stronger. she awakens me to a new understanding with her complexity, her thoughts , her ideas , her personality , her sarcasticness , her suave and of course her love and affections towards me. itu yg menyebabkan aku syg sgt kat cinta.

we have problems , yes i admit. 50% of the problems comes from me. but im so disturbed and sad to know that our surroundings menyalahkan cinta diatas segala2nya..throwing unnecessary judgements towards her. she is complicated and complex , but there are things yg triggered her emotions to become like that, bknnya dia sengaja buat mcm tu. when we talked our problems kat org lain , bukannya nak suruh FIX / JUDGE , but we want them to listen and encourage us, not throwing judgements. if they want to judge who is rite or wrong , then they should listen to both parties. im DISTURBED and i dont want to talk bout my problems wif anyone in my circle anymore. kalau ada relatioship prob, better cite dgn org yg takda kena mengena dgn aku dan cinta..so that i get honest and not biased punya opinion. ada gak my frens yg not biased , and i thank them for that. but cukuplah , situation sekarang ni pun dah serabut dan kompleks. its hard to make people understand. i dun want people to think that cinta is the evil one. i'm also at fault okey?! cinta is soo caring and she always encourage me whenever i feel down .always there for me. bare in mind that when problems occured, its not her fault entirely. i dun want people to throw judgement at her , the consequences are very much sucky. its hard to gain other people's trust u know , esp women. rite now , i dun want to mix cinta wif my frens at the moment. later on perhaps. its messy and i dun like people to push it. " bila nak keluar sekali? or jomla ajak cinta sekali " --> at the moment..no way man. I WANT TO KEEP CINTA AWAY FROM MY SURROUNDINGS FOR AWHILE. I DECIDED ON THAT , NOT HER. DUN EVER2 BLAME HER ON THAT. CALL ME WHATEVER U WANT , I DUN CARE.

cloudburst? well, things r doin fine btw. got a gigg last 24th dec and it was a blast man! we played 3 original songs and 2 covers. Radiohead's fake plastic trees and also The Killer's all these things. cool gile beb! people applauded us gila2! cinta was there , and i seriously thank her for that. love yoouuu and she was there witnessing, lagi best. we're goin to the studio to cut another demo in febuary 06, insyallah. ROCK ON YEAH YEAH!!

hmm..work? got promoted to the next upper level. rite now, im the head of fire ins dep of CAC Maybank S'gor. big responsibilities dude..mcm figure kena submit to manager interms of key performance. doa bnyk2 supaya kuatkan semangat and tabah diatas segala2nya. i know i can do it , i know i can.

all in all i have to say 2005 was special in a certain way.

With The Lights Out..